What Now?

So, we said our goodbyes and wiped away a tear or two. It is so hard for me to let go even when I know that it's better this way. We did all that we could do, and we did our best. Now, it's time for someone else to shine. Even so, I totally resist change, and this is no exception. I don't regret the decision at all. I guess, I'm just a little down about it. I'm afraid of what I'll miss. I'm sure it will pass. I was pretty depressed yesterday, so I welcomed work for a change (not the bank, though. I so wish that I could get out of there!). What I need to do is look forward to all the things that we have missed over the years. We are already much happier, especially since the only things that we ever fought over were musical cues and liturgical philosophy. Now, we'll get to fight over sex and money like everyone else! It's only natural that it would be hard for me to see such a huge part of my life and identity go away. No, it's not all that defines me. I suppose I have other talents, too. lol. I'm not looking for pity or sympathy; I'm just working through my feelings so I can get to the happy place.