Friday, May 20, 2005

Star Wars and a Kiss

Last night Don and I went to see Star Wars. The only other movies that I can remember going to on opening day are Batman Returns and The X-Files Movie. (I'm not a big movie person. Movie theaters gross me out!) No spoilers here. I will say that I am not a Star Wars person, but it totally kept my interest, which is difficult. I enjoyed the movie. I didn't have any preconceived ideas about it, so there wasn't much riding on it for me. I was even kinda' sad at the end, so I can only imagine how the real fans must feel! I've actually had the urge to go back and watch some of the originals now that the whole story is in place. I probably won't, but I thought about it!

I guess that none of you are bartenders based on the very limited (um, none) response to my request for cool drink recipes. Fine, I'll just make some Jungle Punch and mix it all together in a bathtub! That sounds yummy.

Sappy Alert! Sappy Alert!- Today is the anniversary of Don's and my first kiss. No, I do not have every moment of our relationship cataloged, but this one was easy to remember. It was my mom's birthday and my parents were out-of-town at my cousin's wedding. I didn't go, because I was in The Wizard of Oz (again!) at the time and I was pissed off because I wasn't a bridesmaid. My cousin had been my best friend all through childhood, and she didn't even ask me to be in her wedding. Needless to say she wasn't in mine either! I suppose that I should be thankful that I wasn't in the wedding, because then I wouldn't have been home to share such a special (magical) and pivotal evening with my future husband. It is one of the most cherished memories of my life. I always smile and feel very happy when I think of that kiss and how right and perfect it was.

I didn't know what was in store for us. God chose that path, and I am so thankful and blessed that things happened just the way that they did in the time that they did. I am never one for regrets. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and it takes a while to really understand God's plan and timing;that includes both the "good" and the "bad" things. Yes, I've been hurt along the way, but I always try to find power and strength from my belief in good and that even in the darkest night light will shine. God will not abandon us, and He doesn't make mistakes. And that kiss was no mistake! I do miss the giddiness of new love, but I'm coming to appreciate a different more mature love. Giddy new love isn't hard to achieve. Mature love, on the other hand, might not send shivers up your spine, but is more real and more powerful. It's also a lot harder to do. It takes sacrifice and compromise but also expects personal identity and integrity. How can you take care of yourself and be selfless at the same time? I struggle with this a lot. I am a people pleaser. It is much easier for me to do things to make my friends and my spouse happy than it is for me to take care of my own desires and identity. I'm working to find that balance. I guess that marriage is just a journey that we don't have much of a map for. It would be nice if you knew exactly what lied ahead. Is the high, easy trail going to end and when it does how far is the drop or how steep is the climb? But maybe the real love and strength is in what you do if you fall off the cliff and how you work together through the climb. I guess that you just have to have faith in yourself and each other and in the journey that God has put before you. God does not give you what you cannot handle. He does not set any of us up to fail. We fail on our own when we lose faith and stop trusting love. There are so many sad and broken hearts in this world, because people have failed each other and themselves and don't know how to put the pieces back together again. They think that all the power is from outside, but true strength and power is within.

So, our journey started five years ago today with the very best kiss I have ever had. My Love, I will continue to walk, climb and fall with you through pebbles in our shoes, boulders in our path and unexpected mountain cliffs. "I'll love you forever. I'll like you for always. As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be."

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

going back to your bar thingie, you need some Goldschlagger (i don't really know how to spell it) and then I can teach you a drink called the gladiator. it involves chugging an entire shot of the aforementioned goldschlagger after its been dropped into cranberry juice and some other stuff mixed together. the taste is amazing, like a hot tamale in liquid form...very smooth, very good. lemme get the full recipe from my friend and I'll make sure we have one or three if I am ever in town during one of these parties. :)

Saturday, May 21, 2005 7:31:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

by the way, I meant the hot tamale candy...not the actual beef tamale that is hot. I'm sure you knew that. I just wanted to make sure you knew it was that nice smooth cinammony taste and not beef. :) k. just making sure.

Saturday, May 21, 2005 7:32:00 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Love ya', Mike! I can't wait to knock back some Gladiators with you. :)

Saturday, May 21, 2005 9:21:00 PM  

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